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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

遗失的快乐 ; 2:07 AM

遗失的快乐

感觉好像好久好久都没打从心底快乐起来，突然有这样的想法。

长时间以来，我都只顾着自己的“成长”而忘了心灵上的需要。

说实在的，其实我只是在隐藏着自己心灵所需而以。

“自我”的感觉真的好累喔，有 “道”多好。。。

老母啊，请你“去我罪恶与业账，换我私心回本来”。

人世间啊，你真的让我淘醉又痛苦。

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Building happiness ; 11:09 PM

Maybe they know the answer to happiness.............

Building your happiness

“I pay you $150 and I want you to make me happy.”

“I buy you whatever you want, I will give you all I have and I only want you to give me happiness.”

“You are my only happiness, don’t ever leave me.”

Tell me, for all the 3 choices above. Choose one that you think that will give you real happiness, if it really does.

There are big parts of the population outside fighting for their happiness; some even spend their whole life searching for it. I believe everybody have different meaning to their real happiness. Some believe in finding happiness in GOD, some believe in money and a lot more such as true love, luxuries, hot babe, eating, having children. ETC.

I remember reading a book or hearing someone told me before which I can’t really remember where I learn from saying “When you depend on someone or something for your real happiness, prepare to feel sad and disappointed.”

This quote above has to depend on your view to believe whether it true or not and I personally believe it. At the same time I also want to know, who and what give me the real happiness. Ask yourself, have you found your happiness? Who / what is it that gives you this real happiness. And my next question is “Does this real happiness of yours stays?”

And what if it disappears one day?

Am reading this book, people person by John C. Maxwell, he say “The happiest people are those who have invested time in others. The unhappiest people are those who wonder how the world is going to make them happy.

Karl Menninger, the great psychiatrist, was asked what a lonely, unhappy person should do. He said, “Lock the door behind you, go across the street, find someone who is hurting, and help them.” Forget about yourself to help others.

What is your definition to happiness?

I enjoy calling a few friends out to chill for a coffee to enjoy some wind and do some chatting and catch up. Taking in a few deep breath and PHEWWWW, it makes me feel that all the breath that I took in and breathe it out are all stresses and pressure, then relaxation live in me. Sometimes thinking, am I taking the right path to happiness? And where am I heading to?

Hey people out there, let me share my thoughts with you but I’m not sure if I’m right. Some of you may live a very busy life style or some will live a normal one and some even a lifeless one, do remember to come a point of thought

“What am I doing in my life, are all this really going to bring me something special?”

“What’s life really all about? And how does it even help me?”

In fact, everyone have their own definition of being happy for life. Some can found happiness in doing dessert? Or by doing a small business just to get a living and own a happy family. And that all they wanted.

To make a conclusion, it important for you to know and understand what you want and by looking back for all you are doing now, are you moving toward to your desire? See your VISION for the future.

Tips for the day: A real happiness doesn’t leave you even after your death because it suppose to live in your soul and mind. If it does, I guess you got the wrong one.

Friday, June 5, 2009

myself ; 10:14 PM

Dear Yee Cheng,

Hello, long time no see. Have yet to chat with you for a long long time, how are you? doing great?

I know how busy you are and didn't have time for yourself. Haha! and you are still doing the same thing and attitude towards your study huh? Sleep sleep sleep!! Sleep somemore la, in lecture and in tutorial!!

Busy with CCa, meeting, friends and playing as such and what about me?? You used to take some time to talk to me, but no more for now.

Do you know you have miss out quite alot for important stuffs? you know they are good for you but you avoid it, neglect it. You may seems to feel that what you have is the best for your life now, but are you sure? are you really sure?

After this common test, take out some time to spend with your love one and take out some time for your own and a few more those important stuffs that will do good for your life.

Please don't forget about me yeah? Good Luck.

Yourself,
Yee Cheng.

Friday, May 15, 2009

update of meme! Yee Cheng ; 1:57 AM

Update of meme! Yee Cheng

I think it have been donkey years since I last update my blog because I have really busy for camps and club stuffs. Wooohoo! But I think I seriously enjoy all my time that I have spend in primers, though it tiring and it get a little stress up but it all worth!! Really.

Remember that I told my secondary school teacher who ask me back to NCC to help out and I say no to him, since the time is up and so I should close off this sky of mine and start a new one. So here I am in primers!

Primers is a very different club compare to others and of course different from NCC, I use to shout, to scold, to pump and to be as ridicules as I can be. And all this didn’t happen in Primers, because it feel like a big family though ranking and position does still matters but it not as bad like others.

From CCA Fiesta, to welcome party, to Primers orientation camp and to now, we are preparing for NDP’09. WoW! It going to be my second time taking part in NDP, it seriously fun fun fun!

Have been going through all that I have mentions above together with my girlfriend and other close friends. After the camp, for those who isn’t so close in the past, we are now much closer than before.

I just realize that, I love to mention about my past more often, maybe because those time are my most memorable days whereby troubles ain’t trouble, worry ain’t worry. But now troubles are trouble and worry are worries. I think it only when I go to Primers that allow me to get close to my “friends and family” and a place where status and ranking doesn’t matter. I can be whoever I am, a club that open their big door to everyone and together with my girlfriend.

I’m now in year 2 poly, in a new class and with new group of classmate. They are really nice people to know and they are simply fun! Hope we can bond even more as time goes by yeah???

Times flies, have already been 7 months together with my girlfriend, she have always treating me well and recently there is something that she does and make me feel so touched because I thought only my mum will did that to me? Hmmm, thanks girlfriend :)

And please do remind me that very soon I will really need to start studying can? Someone just remind me. Hahaa!! So far ever since school start I have not been listening to lecture at all, all thanks to Clifford. He has been such a nice person to chat and talk crap with. Hahaha! as well as Syfiq and Calvin that taught me how to play poker card. Lols!!

The bad thing is that I am really not active in my youth group anymore, really not like before. It always when I’m involved is club that makes me neglect my youth group. But I can’t blame the club because I choose to be like this. How sia? Lols!! It always gives and takes I think because no matter what, I only have 24 hours a day.

Maybe someday I will really regret what I have let go or not cherish it but so far, I like what I’m in right now. Busy with club, studies, friends, girlfriend, my own leisure, and family, beside this I think I also need some time for my own self right? To take a break so to prepare for another new week that is going to come. I think it reasonable so far.

Alright alright, in conclusion, I’m enjoying my life and the sad thing is that I didn’t have enough money to spend and because money can never be enough for me. But still, in time of financial crisis, girlfriend will always be there to tata~ help me out in some way, don’t worry :) when this happen to you, I will help you also J heh! Enjoy some photos that I have post.

With lots of love,

Yee Cheng :)

Here are some FUN photo to share - NP- BB Primers :)

Sexy eh ?

Reach out to the heart of public ( Garbage man )

kena pour by stepping on land mine

Both are Female :) sure sure??

My best friend favourite post 1.

Favourite post 2. AGAIN !

My silly friend, clifford! That childish face

My girlfriend and Fann day dreaming ah? haha

It have been 1 year since i last kayat! Victory!

NP-BB Primers' captain "Daniel Kalai" Grow his hair after donkey years!

Yo! It Taino In the HOUSE!!!! TAINO!!

TAINO GLs! Yee Cheng & Jessie , My First Camp Partner!

TAINO !! Take 1 :)

TAINO!! Take 2 :) Jump Shot!

CADDO! Girlfriend and Shaun :) 2010 Take 1

CADDO!! 2009 team! Take 2 :)

NP-BB Primers Family :) 2009 / 2010

Primers Outing to SENTOSA - Best photo shot i have ever take :D

Friday, April 10, 2009

Hey friends, I realize it not easy ; 4:11 PM

Hey friends, I realize it not easy

It nearly one month since i last blog, have been quite busy with club stuffs and events and of course enjoying my holiday. It have been very fruitful to say and now it left another 10 days for school to start. Times seriously flies.

Catch some interesting movies during this holiday which really motivate me to blog about it but i didn't have the strenght to do so, I don't know why too. Movies like DEPARTURE and KNOWING.

I always wanted my blog to be in the way i want by having meaningful posts for me and people who read to feel and learn something, but now it seems to change. I ain't have anymore or very few of it to share. I'm getting more lazy i think or i should say i'm losing motivation.

Hey friends, I realize it seriously not easy to live up to the philosophy of life.

Philosophy of life.

I felt anger, I left sad, I left happy, I left excited, I felt nervous, I felt worry, I felt lousy, I left overjoy.

The problem is how am i going to apply the philosophy of life in me when i feel unhappy about something? The answer is NONE.

Human, the only animal who have the most different kind of emotions in life and the problem is when we feel sad, we tend to dwell in it, we tend to do nothing about it to change this emotion. We listen nothing and no postive thought are coming in until we choose to do so. Everything seems wrong at that moment, WHY?

Why is this so? I share with you guys something interesting, this interesting example happen in our daily life but i guess no one realize this.

Imagine, your friend is sad over something and you are the one comforting your friend and tell him or her everything isn't that bad and cheering your friend up. You are able to think of hundred and one way of theory, reasoning and methods just to cheer your friend up. You finally did it, and you also know why is your friend feeling sad, because he / she had just fail the exam paper.

Now, the same thing happen to YOU.

Remember that you are the one who is able to think of hundred and one way to cheer your friend up, so are you able to have your hundred and one way to cheer yourself up? OR

You most probably need some other people to cheer you up?

Human, a weird but most intelligent life form. That why, we are complex. We tend to dwell into something that isn't good for us.

When you are happy, the sky seems to be blue and clear because of you.

When you are sad, even if the sky seems to be blue and clear you will blame the sky why is it still blue and clear? are they trying to mock at you? Everything doesn't seems right, not even the air you breath.

Same for me, because i'm just a human after all. By the time you read until here, you will get to feel a little confuse why are we behaving in this way? but after a short time you will realize this is why human, us, need to have support, need encouragement.

Philosophy of life are suppose to make our life feel better, feel more positive thus influencing everyone else on earth so to make this a better world to be. I tried, but it seems to be hard, difficult. But of course, i'm able to manage myself better than before.

Hey Friends, emotions are only a tools that allow us to feel that this world is full of colours.

Emotions are tools to let us know what's right, what's wrong.

Emotions are tools to let us feel love.

Never allow emotions to took control over us because once it does, Everything goes wrong.

Let me share another story with you, my friends out there.

There is this man who work as a stock analysis, as you know stock analysis is one of the most nerve taking job because this second it could raise, the next second it could drop. It a very challening job that you could go very mad and crazy but it doens't seems to affect him whenever he reach home.

One day, he was real sad for what have happen in this work, so the boss decide to hold a meeting at 8pm and no one is allow to skip. His friend wanted to drive him out for a dinner together but he request to go home to have dinner and ask if his friend can come and drive him back to the company an hour later? his friend agree and start driving him home.

He get out of the car and walk toward his house, his friend start to feel weird for what he is going to do. He stop infront of a tree and started talking to the tree and he did an action as if it like taking out a wreath and hang onto the tree, then he walk back into his home. His friend feel very weird about it and drove off.

As soon as he walk back home, the man start to have a very fun time together with his family, there is laughter, smile, playing and fooling around and follow by a great dinner together with his wife and children. He took a qiuck bathe and a good bye kiss for his wife and children before walking out of his home.

Here come his friend driving him back to the company, he walk back to the tree and started talking to the tree again and this time he do the same action as if it like taking the wreath from the tree and wear it back on himself again and he walk back to his friend car.

The friend didn't understand and ask why are you talking to the tree and make such weird action?

He told the his friend this.

"I am unhappy with what happen today, whether it stress, anger or whatever it is that make me unhappy, i didn't want to bring all this emotions back home and causes my wife and children to feel sad as well. So before stepping back home, i will always have all my burden being hang on the tree and totally enjoy my time with my family. Till the time i have to work again, i will carry all this burden back to it and started working again."

It 6months today :) I love you

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Doctor with a soul ; 12:26 AM

Doctor with a soul

Finally, I end my 3 weeks attachment. Friends and I was really damn slack today, partly because we only have 3 patients in the male cubicle as well.

Seriously speaking, I dislike this profession at times but I do have times that I enjoy it too. It disgusts me whenever I see pool of feces, saliva and discharge from the patient’s body and mouth. But come to think of it, do they want to be like this? They don’t.

This is the fourth attachment I have for this one whole year. Three of it are at NUH itself and 1 of it was at nursing home and polyclinic. No doubt that I got touched by the patients and their relatives for every single attachment I went to.

Today, I work for 15min extra after I end my work at 8.30pm just to clean up a pool of wet, soiled feces from a patient that was send up by the A&E department. The smell is really “gush through your nose”, I nearly vomited and I couldn’t find any face mask around.

But just before I left the ward, those relatives around that saw me a few times for this few days, they came to me and say “all the best for your future and I want to thank you for taking care of my dad.” And together with a firm hand shake.

Just these words, I suddenly forget about those negative thoughts I have about the profession in nursing.

Oh, nurse’s profession is not about cleaning up shit.

But down there I want everyone to know, INCLUDING MYSELF. People who are in health care profession have all kind of different attitude in their own health care career, for me? What kind of attitude I have?

I want to be rich but I also want to heal and cure people. If you ask me to have the heart to heal and cure people but won’t be that rich which I want to be, I don’t think I can carry on.

If I want to be, I really want to be a doctor but a doctor with soul.

Today I get to talk with a patient’s relative; she told me that the patient that lies on the bed is her father. He was once a Chinese physician and now he is being diagnose with functional decline. She asks me about my interest in health care and I told her (mention above) and she said “Not everyone can get what they dream of, sometimes it above give and take. If you got what you want, you may lose what you have.”

I knew this all along but I don’t take it to heart because I don’t want to believe that this will happen to me. Why can’t I be the lucky one that got what I want and lose nothing?

I have been in nursing profession for 1 year so far, I believe in having gratitude, it takes you further in life and I have been practicing it. At times, I do think about the important of being rich and why I think about being a doctor? Do I really want to heal and cure people or because I want the fame and money?

Haha, sorry. I can’t stand my greediness, I want it all. If you don’t have the money, don’t tell me about giving to the poor. You don’t even have the ability to buy medical equipment to save the needs when you can’t even provide yourself, tell me how are you going to provide for others? So, I need to be able to provide myself and my family then I will be able to provide others. That life reality, I can say.

I remember my mum told me this, she knows a doctor who doesn’t really care about having the fame and the amount of money she earns but her skills in healing is damn good. She’s is not famous and doesn't earn much because a lot of patients doesn’t like the style of curing because she is very strict and want the patient to follow her instruction which irritate most of the patients.

If one day, I really have the chance to be a doctor, I’m sorry to say that I want to be a doctor with soul. I will really have the heart to cure my patient but at the same time I want to be rich and I want to be famous. I want it all.

You can’t expect me to step into a poverty country to save people when I’m a poverty myself. It makes sense. LOL!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Exco Advance. ; 10:34 PM

Exco Advance.

Here come to the end of exco advance, it was really great. So far, primers activities and camps are really better with good quality of programme compare to student union.

The day before exco advance, was together with darling. We talk throughout but still cannot tahan then snoree.....lols!

The first day of advance camp, it really superb! inspiring and motivating. The movie "Facing the Giant" ( I personally recommand it to all, really thumb up ) The spirit of never give up even though life are in a down pour.

For myself.

"What is your giant (Your fear ) in life"

- My gaint in life is, i scare of putting my friendship into risk or by offending them without realizing through my behavior, words and action.

The second day of advance, we wear our new Shirt with a very great theme " Love your Neighbour" and we are suppose to bring a few bottle of mineral water and walk into the public and give it to them with words of gratitude.

I pair up with weixia as a team and we start off to the sambawang park outside the BB camp site.

We saw a lady with an umbrella walking towards us, believe that she want to go to the bus stop behind us. weixia and me approach her.

" Hi miss, we are student from NP and we are promoting this love your neighbour campaign. Here is the bottle of water from us to you as a act of kindness, hope you can appreciate it."

" Wow! Thank you, you know what? a few min ago i still think of buying a bottle of water because i'm quite thirsty and mins later i met you all and give me a bottle of water. It really a miracle you know? Thank you Neighbour!"

The rest of water bottle, i only want to give people there is think there is a need, as most of the people at sambawang park is having BBQ which i don't see a need in giving, but weixia did. Anyway we just want others to know there is still people who care of neighbour.

And it time to plan about CCA Fiesta and Welcome Party. Both team got very creative and innovative idea, i really hope we can successful have a group of new freshie of 400 power strength.

With good quality, there will be good quantity! that my believe.

This coming year is really busy, tiring but i believe it all worth, as it a time for my to grow strong in my leadership area, together with my darling in the team of Primers EXCO together with all our good friends. Hmmm, i believe sooner or later i will a person with good time management because after all i have to at least pass my course. LOL! always aim for just pass, what the hell me! hahahaa..

During the 3 days of Exco advance camp, i get to have a great talk with darling. I believe she get all the heart felt words i said. Though she didn't really talk alot about her opinion but through the way of attentiveness in listening, i know she understand it and after about an hour plus of listening, she say thank you DD to me :) and i know... i know she got touched. because she move very close to me and soon, she fall alseep while listening to my story for her and with the rest of our friends.

I know she had a very good night and sleep :)

It going to be another busy week. Primers is having another gathering at sentosa on this coming sat, 14March. FUN FUN FUN.

Goodnight everybody !

Love your Neighbour