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Thursday, March 29, 2007

Glory they deserve ; 6:22 PM

Went for my last speech day parade yesterday, and i was the camera man for the day!! Special thanks to Yan Jing because he revenge for “all student who taught by Mrs Yip” well done!! He vomited on Mrs Yip during the inspection of parade, COOL!!

I was kind of jealous with my junior because lots of photo for them, near and far, plus detail, last year non of them do that for us. I got lots of photo of our speech parade and I saved in my com, but when I transfer photo to my laptop, don’t know what happen all lost, not a single photo left, shit the laptop!! Calm down yeecheng, the memories is save deep down in my heart.

I saw her yesterday, becoming prettier then before although I didn’t get to see very clearly but that was what my friends told me. Jesscia, Derek chan they all. My mood didn’t get affected by her presence but what I really felt in my heart is, I still and do care about her, I really went to continue being her friend and that all, I ask for nothing beside this.

I think I’m just like a nanny, putting in effort to over see their parade, rehearsal, drum, plus a little problem here and there. Seeing their effort paid off yesterday because the parade was a successful one. Plus a wondering drum performance, it always the best performance Fuhua ever has. Looking into their face, I saw satisfaction in their eyes and smiles. I’m happy, filled with joys. I didn’t know why, but my joys really came from the bottom of my heart. I not my parade, it theirs but I wish to capture every single detail of their movement, process of parade and drum rehearsal and performance, worried I will miss one single moment. Wanting the best moment to be capture into my camera, I miss my old pals in NCC, I miss sweating with them, I miss marching with them, I miss the time when we had our greatest glory, I miss the sleepless night doing our proposal, I miss staying in school and having AAR after training, I want to go back to the past, with my old pals. My NCC uniform is just like a time machine that brought my memories back to the past whenever I wear it up.

For this last 3 to 4 month in NCC, we left 3 more “most fun moment” 1) our coming up June camp, 2) Our NCC DAY, 3) Planning of class camp after our O level. Hope those who are involve will put in effort and plan, this will be my very first time conducting camp with my junior, hope everything will went smoothly. My sec4 junior is really great, because they are very well bonded, every time getting together with them is a fun time because lame things happen non-stop and that really make my day.

Hey guys in NCC, it doesn’t matter if we cant be first in national, a title cant mean everything although we still hope for the best. After all you guys will realize that it the memories and friends we have made so far is the most important and precious of all. I’m not sure if everyone of thing think the same as mine but this is the truth from bottom of my heart. Treasure the last 3 to 4 month we have together as “NCC brothers”, knowing you guys is really my honor, although I do punish you guys at times because it my responsibility to do so, but you guys are my great friends.

Tips for the day= we do not need a relationship to be in love, actually we are already in love every single days, parent and friends do love us, the different is only in the status we have with them. Most important of all, god love us and we don’t need to worry that we will ever fall out of love. People do seek for love in the wrong way and cause them to regret for whatever they had “done” to seek for love, thus leading to health problem. You guys know what I mean. So love those around us!!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Heart attack??!!! ; 6:52 PM

This few days, the pain in my heart and back has been torturing me and I feel like I’m dying. Note that it is real pain lei, not those sadness that let me my heart feel pain.Every step I take, or even sitting down my heart feel a short sharp pain. Even a wide stretch makes my heart feel so painful and even cause breathing difficulties. This seem like I’m having a serious heart attack soon? And I think it really coming soon, this is the very first time I feel the worry of dying soon but this is not the very first thought. It her that come into my mind first. I know you guys will be thinking that “chey, you think wanna die so easy mehx ? yeecheng you think too much le la, please lor” but, readers do you know that when your heart feel the pain every single minute, wondering if you will die. The very first thing that come into your mind is the person who is the most important one to you, isn't a very natural reaction and kind of think? Derek still said “ yeecheng, go for operation la “ I was like” what the hell?! Operation? I rather die sia!!”

Anyway, dude..your leg will be recovering soon de la. I then don’t see my friend like this sia, it may be a small operation la but having operation means no good!! I will pray hard for you..lols

If there is anything that want to happen to me, please be over her birthday which is the coming April. I spend a very long time preparing her surprise le, please hang on for a moment, just a little more.

Speech is coming on this coming Wednesday, I think SHE is coming back to fuhua to take her prize?? Think so, I looking forward huh?? Yupx, I will.

Tips for the day—having faith with god is the best way to walk along with god, even having prayer is the same thing. In order for a prayer to come true, besides having god’s power in you, you have to believe what your heart think and put your words into action and that's the greatest power a prayer can be. A combination of god’s power, believe in what your think want and think and by putting into action so do you think there is any need of having magic in this world to fulfill your needs?

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Friend or not? ; 12:57 AM

Hmmm, close friends around me more or less know that I had already overcome fully over my relationship problem. Oh, or I should say that my EX-RELATIONSHIP?Any way, she seems to overcome very well? Yes, she is. Oh, no. I think I’m wrong. She’s busying worry about another guy now. Wow, great huh. She keep changing her blog add to avoid me. Yet she say "you will be my best friend even if we can’t be together. Sound good, sound great. It just a comment that meant to make me feel better, that all. She’s not serious about being friend at all. Stranger to her is what she want.

I sound so sarcastic right? I don’t mean it at all. I feel so sad, disappointed. Not because she overcome it, not because she fall for other guy. Disappointed because she don’t even want to be friend anymore. Hey come on! I was once her boyfriend for 3 years, among all her close friend, I dare to say I know her the best, everything about her. So what if our relationships fail? Not even friend anymore? That’s shit la!

I read her blog and knew that she is having gastric pain which sound serious to me, maybe not for her. Anyway, I felt really worried for her. So I decided to send a sms to her. She did not reply. Up till today, she didn’t reply. Wow, that how she treats me, cool? Yeah, really cool. If she ever read my blog, she will think that “when you broke up with me, you also don’t bother me at all and you hack care me too, it totally fair that I treat you this way” it totally due to parent restriction, not I don’t want to bother her.

I really miss benedict so much. he’s really obedient, cute and friendly. I’m talking about Annabel’s younger brother. Remember, there was one time, when Annabel brought her brother to the school gate and find me. Annabel was standing at the left side, benedict in the middle and I standing at the right. Both of us holding on to benedict hands, It totally sweet la, and I remember I love playing with benedict. Badminton, table tennis, basketball, soccer and I really miss those times. Oh man , benedict come and find me please.

Avoiding one another after breaking up is not the best solution, come on!! Why got together in the past? Because you like him or her, and why it last long? because he or she suit you. So even if we broke up, love me as a friend. Don’t avoid me or treat me just like a stranger. I wish you all the best in your wonderful life, AND take really good care of your health. I know you love eating food, but don’t spoil your stomach. I really worry about you, as a friend. I know.

I really got over of this relationship, and I know we really end. My life is renew. A new chapter of life has begun. Walking in faith with god is really a great choice, god heal my heart and soul. Friends around me are great. I love them. Remember one month ago, I was really at the bottom of my life. Deep at the bottom of my heart, I prayed. Praying for god’s answer. “ let go, let go of this relationship. Remember that even if the people on earth don’t love you, I do. There is a greater task I have for you, yeecheng. I need you to wake up, and walk in faith with me.”god said. I tried to numb myself by being so busy with friends. Enjoying myself every single day. And I thought I got over her. But I’m not. I felt really enjoy, and my laughter is true, when I’m a god servant. Doing religion stuff, I feel really great and my heart feel light. And I know god’s true to me. I will be true to god. You have my word, god.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Thank you and stay happy ; 6:22 PM

Finally, March holiday was already over and it a brand new term coming up. Fulfilling holiday I had spended with friends and I dint studying at all, that really bad. Nahx, Im gotta work hard and prove it to someone that I’m going to have a bright future. Any way, We ( youth group ) finally deliver the message on tea culture successfully and it was kinda fun. Remember when I was young, big kor kor and jie jie were pulling me to go for kids lesson but I ran away from them. Up till now, i’m a leader myself in religion and I try to convince kids to come for lesson and I experienced the same thing happen to me just like how I ran way from the leader in the past. Of course, I feel the sadness inside my heart. So, never do the wrong thing and behavior orelse your younger generation is going to do back the same thing to you. That right. ME, here by wanna say a very big thank you to the senior leader in my religion that if you guys are not the one leading me to the good, there won’t be me as a leader now in religion. I will do whatever I can and through the power of god, to educate the young ones, to groom them up well and at the same time, me myself too. Thank you, leaders in religion.

Seeing the world being so Hi-tech now, people in the poorer country are so envy with us, thinking that “wow, they must be living so happily” but back to the point. Are we living that happily like what the people in the poorer countries say? Worth thinking about it.

我们活在这先进的国家常常都被较落后的国家羡慕。甚只说 “要是我能活在他们的国家，我一定会更快了” 但真是如此吗？

莎士比亚说过
[ 甜中加甜，不见其甜；乐中加乐，才是大乐 ]用有诙谐，幽默，风趣的人格特质，天天抱持 [ 喜乐之心 ]逗笑他人，使人快乐，就会使 [ 平淡蔬菜 ] 变成 [ 丰盛嘉肴 ]也会使 [ 室内墙脚 ] 充满 [ 灿烂阳光 ]

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I'm again back ; 6:58 PM

Wow, this holiday is quite a fulfilling one?? I think so. Hahaz, know a new friend recently name ,Valerie Huimin. She knew my Andy and my brother first and then andy introduce her to me, she is a very nice lady and accompany me for Monday to thurs, lols. Thanks lots to her orelse I think this holiday would be a boring one.

Last week, I went to youth group meeting to learn about tea culture, it really fulfilling and enrichment. I knew what tea should I tea at different situation and time, what tea should not be drink all this. I learn the name of each equipment and the process of brewing tea. That just too cool man!!! We have this meeting on learning of this tea culture is because of this coming sat, we are going to deliver this tea culture to the youth at red hill, lols, cool cool cool..

Hey carol, this is the photo you guys want it ba?? Lols.. All dead..hahaz..just kidding

Soul healing for the day= The living comfort and interest comes when you yourself think that you live because of others and when you live for God.

心灵鸡汤 = 生活中最大的享受，最大的乐趣就在觉得自己是为人们所需要的。也为了神而活。

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

sentosa cum talk cum ahma birthday ; 1:04 AM

Sorry guys, it has been a few days since I blog the last time cause I have been rather busy this few days..actually is not few days ba, I should say it almost everyday, hahaz.. Last sat was really a great day !!! Gone to sentosa with jean, carol and Derek in the morning and I actually woke up late so I meet them late lor..upon reaching, they had already start tanting liao and I took out my T-shirt and tann too..so shuang la, very long never had such a good contact with Sun..and I sweat like mad lor..But I enjoy it a lot.

Then went out with Eunice for a talk. Oh man, it’s just another great talk that make an big impact on me la.. I believe it does the same to Eunice too…I dint get to go out with friends after the talk cause it my Grandma birthday..so I rush all the way to my cousin house to celebrate her birthday

My grandma had injured herself in the morning and was send to hospital, she had injure her head and cause bleeding, but she had been discharge a few hours later and we manage to celebrate her birthday with her..HAPPY BIRHTDAY MY LOVELY AH MA, I love you soo much..

Soul healing for the day = Things that happen in life is already a past tense. It time to let it goes because everyone is moving on and we cant possibly stop there. Looking back at the past is just to get a clearer picture of what mistake you done and prevent it from happening in the present in order to go for the perfect ending.

心灵鸡汤= 过去的就让它过去。是时候放下了因为地球不会因你而停下。看看自己的过去也只是让你更明白过去做错了什么然后在现今可以把事做得更完美。