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Saturday, November 29, 2008

I want it all ; 11:28 AM

I want it all

Maybe it fate, that I should post on this.
* Content is on fame, money and loves.*

Few days back, while I was going to library with darling, I heard this topic that the NP radio heat waves are discussing what is more important, fame, money or loves?

Sometimes, we dream to be perfect and trying to be perfect when it actually can’t happen. We knew this though there are still people who don’t believe it because they are still in their own dream, or probably I’m wrong?

Recently, I just realize one of my close friend that choose have fame / power instead of our friendship. See! Why authority and fame would take over our conscious instead?

Yesterday I went for Gabriel’s Christmas celebration in school and *MORE, MORE* is the theme for this celebration. During the skit performance Gabriel act as a rich and famous student in his school, he have everything and everything that everyone is dying to have. But, Gabriel feels that something is missing in his life and there’s got to be “more” in his life. What is the “more” that’s missing in him / or in us?

Yesterday, was announce that I’m the president for NP BB Primers. So what? Even before we start working as a team, there’s already people bluffing using our trust for him / her. Anyway, I couldn’t really smile.

After thinking through day and night, I got the answer. Nobody is pulling me back, but one thing, my conscious. HAHA! This shows that I’m not blind by fame and authority. I choose to have loves. So darling, I hope you know what I mean :D I believe you can because you’re smart. I’m still a DD and always your DD.

** I got a lot to tell you <3!**

Tips for the day = Balance your thought and never let authority, fame and money to blind you up before you regret and cry all over it.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Let’s talk cock. ; 4:32 PM

Nice movie la~~

Darling and me like this character among all. cute~

Let’s talk cock.

It already the 19 days since I last update.

Just end my common test today and hmmm, didn’t have a good feeling that I can pass all modules but anyway, wish me luck. I really feel like blogging some interesting stuff, too bad I didn’t have any at the moment, so decide to talk cock for this post.

Quite a few things happen this few weeks, there’s good and bad. Hmmm, don’t really want to mention those bad stuffs. Not because I like to hide or what, it simply because I don’t like to add stress on myself and get stuck inside. Instead of getting sad, I might as well solve it once and for all.

Happy things? Haha!! Of course worth remembering, that my style. Primer-Dary can consider quite a success with help from all seniors, it really fun. Was all along with Darling and over see the activity progress as well, had lots of fun, looking at her enjoying the game as well. It really quite a satisfaction :D Though she’s not feeling really well that day, but she still pull it through *Bravo Bravo!!*

Oh okay, I know I feel like blogging about what now, Primers!

Darling, piriya, Shaun and i just went through Exco interview last week. Let’s just hope we all get in, and work together for primers. Hmmm, I still remember I join primers is because of her and NPRC, after all this time, she’s still the reason why I’m here. Now whether if all of us get into Exco or not, the reason for me to stay will still be the same. Know why?

Just because I hope I can have fun working together with darling and seeing her enjoy every single event we are in. Just that simple :D

Coming up event will be Team bonding camp, Primers camp, Primers annual meeting and and and Merry Christmas :D woohoo!! Come come give me present. This Sunday I’m going for excursion with all my kids, fly kite. Haha! And planning for youth group Xmas celebration will be coming up also, 2 weeks attachment at NUH will be next Monday and Standard Chartered Marathon at 7Dec as well. Plus plus, NPRC gathering during the holiday, see! It going to be damn busy.

I promise the next post will be something meaningful, hai~ I haven been reading a lot like last time. GOD!! This is no good.

Loves NPRC, TPP and You <3!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

48hours a day ; 12:24 AM

48hours a day

Things in me have totally change and there is a saying which sound so true, one will never realize when there is a change in them. I’m just another one.

Ever since poly school had started, time never seems to be enough for me. 24hours for is no longer enough, I want another 24hours added to the day.

As long as I’m at home, my eyes stare into nowhere but computer, for hours! And if my eyes are close, obviously I’m on bed sleeping. There isn’t any noise from me at home, even though I’m at home. The loudest noise come from my brother, dad and mum, fighting on bed and my mum busy scolding them and me? Looking into computer and don’t bother about them, hoping to finish my proposal, projects and assignments.

“Cheng ah, tomorrow morning accompany me to go for breakfast can?”

“Cannot lei, mummy. I’m going for some event early in the morning.”

“Cheng ah, come in and accompany us watch TV lei.”

“I’m rushing for my work la! Cannot!”

“Cheng ah, you very long never talk to us liao lei, how are you in school? Really got so busy or not?”

“Soso la (Staring at com), why lei? I very busy now eh.”

Seriously speaking, I realize the changes in me. Becoming impatience, more hot temper, no time for family, no time for good communication with them but I simply deny the changes in me that they mention because I don’t want to accept the fact and thought I can still actually manage it well just like before.

But the answer is, I can’t.

I feel the sour in me when my mum said “Do you realize how long you didn’t hold my hand and go out for a walk? Do you realize how long I didn’t get to talk to you even when I’m sad? Do you realize how long I didn’t get to have a proper breakfast with you? Do you realize how long I didn’t get to take a proper look at my own son?”

What the hell am I busy for?!?!?!

There is no need for discussion with them when I need things to be done in my own way because this is the best way for what I think. Yes! This is the best way, but I didn’t bother to have a good talk and discussion with them. Why? Simply because I have things behind waiting for me to do and I have no time. Like again?! NO TIME, what a good excuse.

I want to be an understanding child just like before, one with good patience toward my parents. Pile and pile of works are really suffocating me, but it not a good reason and excuse to treat my parent like the way I do now! Who isn’t stress like me, as long as you are living in Singapore? You only live your life once, it either you love the ones around you now or never.

A message to dad and mum: I really understand what both of you want from me, not A’s in my entire grade but a filial child, that all you both ask for. I promise to have times for both of you out of all my busy works and schedule, quit whatever that is unnecessary. I promise to be back the child like you want me to be, just like before. Just give me some time to adjust, I promise I will. Sorry daddy and mummy, I love you.

A message to darling: Times with you are great and beautiful, I hope this post won’t make you feel that you are taking up a lot of my time. I need you to know that you are already part of my family and both my parent had long accepted you, you are not just any one of the friends outside but a special one to me and my family. So never say sorry to me if you think you are just another busy work for me, never feel this way! LOLs, I believe you also know I’m having a lot of “kang tao” beside school-ing. That the problem in me, I’m going to re-adjust everything from now. I’m sure of this decision. I love you. 10.10 <3!