Whenever the banker bet, it either he win a lot more or lose a lot more as compare to those players. I have gain a lot and I lost a lot as well, I used to thought of myself as person with great power of control in life, as a leader that no others can compare that filled me up with unbeatable confident. Wow! And I’m so glad to realize all this self acknowledge confidents have been totally destroy and re-mould again with something extra!
And when the banker lost, he lost to his own image, relationship, being flirtatious and leading no integrity of life. Whenever there’s someone better, instantly I thought I could get someone better, thinking how good it would be if my girlfriend can be like this girl, that girl and this girl. How good it would be if she’s like this, like that and like this. And instantly, I will want this girl, that girl and many more. Simply, I want to flirt with lots of girlfriend.
Just then when I lost everything, then I remember to ask myself “What good do I expect for myself? And what does she expect from me?” I’m simply destroying my own life, flooding myself with endless sin and joy from the devils, giving in to temptations which just happen in spilt second! My entire dream could just be blown away by giving in to devils!
After all the downward of life for a good few months, my mentors give their hands to me that pull me up and train me in every area and challenge me. Finally I’m awake! Area of life did improve and one left untouched.
I’m just so close to made it! Though I’m still struggling, but I know I can become pure again because my dream is just so worthwhile and big to lose to the devil and giving in to temptation, which I can’t afford to. Just a little more time and I will be able to cross the winning line. Wait for me.
If I’m ever going to open a new blog again, that would be the time when I’m at a new stage of life that has already brought me to a higher height. Thank you for all this ups and downs, all this lesson learnt would be much better than hunting for treasure.
Sign off.
Yee Cheng