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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Friend or not? ; 12:57 AM

Hmmm, close friends around me more or less know that I had already overcome fully over my relationship problem. Oh, or I should say that my EX-RELATIONSHIP?Any way, she seems to overcome very well? Yes, she is. Oh, no. I think I’m wrong. She’s busying worry about another guy now. Wow, great huh. She keep changing her blog add to avoid me. Yet she say "you will be my best friend even if we can’t be together. Sound good, sound great. It just a comment that meant to make me feel better, that all. She’s not serious about being friend at all. Stranger to her is what she want.

I sound so sarcastic right? I don’t mean it at all. I feel so sad, disappointed. Not because she overcome it, not because she fall for other guy. Disappointed because she don’t even want to be friend anymore. Hey come on! I was once her boyfriend for 3 years, among all her close friend, I dare to say I know her the best, everything about her. So what if our relationships fail? Not even friend anymore? That’s shit la!

I read her blog and knew that she is having gastric pain which sound serious to me, maybe not for her. Anyway, I felt really worried for her. So I decided to send a sms to her. She did not reply. Up till today, she didn’t reply. Wow, that how she treats me, cool? Yeah, really cool. If she ever read my blog, she will think that “when you broke up with me, you also don’t bother me at all and you hack care me too, it totally fair that I treat you this way” it totally due to parent restriction, not I don’t want to bother her.

I really miss benedict so much. he’s really obedient, cute and friendly. I’m talking about Annabel’s younger brother. Remember, there was one time, when Annabel brought her brother to the school gate and find me. Annabel was standing at the left side, benedict in the middle and I standing at the right. Both of us holding on to benedict hands, It totally sweet la, and I remember I love playing with benedict. Badminton, table tennis, basketball, soccer and I really miss those times. Oh man , benedict come and find me please.

Avoiding one another after breaking up is not the best solution, come on!! Why got together in the past? Because you like him or her, and why it last long? because he or she suit you. So even if we broke up, love me as a friend. Don’t avoid me or treat me just like a stranger. I wish you all the best in your wonderful life, AND take really good care of your health. I know you love eating food, but don’t spoil your stomach. I really worry about you, as a friend. I know.

I really got over of this relationship, and I know we really end. My life is renew. A new chapter of life has begun. Walking in faith with god is really a great choice, god heal my heart and soul. Friends around me are great. I love them. Remember one month ago, I was really at the bottom of my life. Deep at the bottom of my heart, I prayed. Praying for god’s answer. “ let go, let go of this relationship. Remember that even if the people on earth don’t love you, I do. There is a greater task I have for you, yeecheng. I need you to wake up, and walk in faith with me.”god said. I tried to numb myself by being so busy with friends. Enjoying myself every single day. And I thought I got over her. But I’m not. I felt really enjoy, and my laughter is true, when I’m a god servant. Doing religion stuff, I feel really great and my heart feel light. And I know god’s true to me. I will be true to god. You have my word, god.