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Thursday, April 5, 2007

Childish yeecheng ; 8:02 PM

CHILDISH YEE CHENG!!

I don’t look like a kid anymore, I don’t like one who one who will run around the corridor playing catching with other kids anymore. But, I’m behaving like one in school, or I should say I only behaving damn childish in my class only.

Yes!! I’m behaving just like a kid, childish and playing. So what? I enjoy behaving this way and I feel really relaxing behaving this way. I’m a person who cares a lot of my own image, especially girls. Haha. As long as I step into classroom, I ready feel behaving in my own childish way and the reason is this. 5S1 is just like my another home, place where all my good friends is and I don’t feel that there is a need to behave so seriously, a place where I don’t have to worry others will harm me or hurt me. Another reason why I want to behave in this manner is because I really want my last year to be really memorable and we can’t possibly have secondary life forever.

Acting cute, singing songs during lesson, fighting here and there, eating foods in class, creating jokes, sleep in class, chatting after school is all kinds of fun I have with my classmates and I enjoy it a lot, lots and lots. I love them.

I want to be childish, I got to be childish and I need to be childish!!!! ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY

Being childish definitely is not my nature, in fact I’m a very old man kind of person. In NCC, it is impossible for you guys to see me being childish, with a damn serious and fierce face. At home, I behave even more mature compare to my dad. In religion, I behave in a holy way for whatever I do. So whenever I show the childish side of me, which show that the relationship I have with my friends is really good, close and they are my real friends. And I can’t really explain how I behave when I’m back to my own self, any way it totally different from how I behave in class ba.

HAHAZ, this is also the reason why no girls in my class like me lor, sian. Who will like a guy who behaves totally like a P1 or P2 kid?? I’m a nice man ok?? Like promoting myself like that. Kidding la.

I miss the kind of feeling when I’m in love with someone, I miss having love from someone. I had opened my heart once before for a person who meant everything to me to stay in my heart, but she choose to leave. My joy and laughter lost ever since and my soul nearly dies. I tried millions of way to find my joy and laughter back, but I failed to, starting to wonder around finding the meaning of love and I understand one thing “changing of one environment means changing of one person” It damn true, Ivan know that very well too, my good friend.

I walk a big around, and I found HER, she give me a whole new feeling that she may be the right person. She is one who is really pure in her character, a person with really unique character. I SWEAR THAT SHE IS ONE WHO HAVE A VERY PURE PERSON WHOM NONE OF YOU EVER SEE BEFORE. Unless you guys know her, I hope my heart can open once again waiting the right one to come in but it all depends on fate. And I’m waiting for her to be willing to be friend once again. I miss her, as a friend. Really. 3 more days to go before giving HER present which I prepare for months. Looking forward!!

Tips for day= Those unlucky one may lost their memories, but this is actually a blessing from god telling them to slow down their pace of life. Looking the kinds of life around him, hearing the voices around him and learn the kinds of happy, anger and sad things happening around him. Knowing how important love is for everyone.