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Thursday, May 17, 2007

Love or no Love?? ; 10:15 PM

Hi friends, I’ back finally after repairing my laptop for a week or so. Friends are barking me to update my blog and I miss blogging too lor. Ok, here’s my topic for tonight.

Love or no Love?

Interesting topic huh? Hahaz, actually I have been watching this comedy show “ Deal or no Deal” and it kind of interesting you know, I find this show very meaning not because the amount of money is attractive, oh fine, the money is attractive but this show really taught me quite a few meaning things about life too.

1) We human got to learn how to make firm decision in life even if we are under stress.
2) Of course, we got to make decision SMART
3) Life is full of temptation; know how to resist temptation in order to reach a further destination.
4) People around you are may be evil, may be angle. They influence your life so have your own stand and direction of your life.

Yupx, so this is some points I learn during the show and it really inspire me so much. Serious speaking, now a day I really miss those times I had with her and more or less missing her a little, I wonder how her life is, so Love or no Love? Looking back of this relationship I had before, is like attending an important lesson of life. Relationship is a process of growing up, everyone go through this part of lesson in life. Some overcome it very well, some gone into depression and some chose to die. So what love?

For the past few days, I was having high fever and it really a great torture to me. Laying on bed unable to come out of my bed because I didn’t have the strength coming out of my bed. To my ultimate strength, I force myself out of the bed and took a quick bath. During the 10min of bathing, I sat on the toilet bowl to bath and kept mumbling “help me god, I felt like dying and this is the worst day of my life” and I hardly open up my eye to see my surrounding, I breath as loud as thunder storm wanting to get out of this freaking toilet and went to my bed, desperately.
4 days later, feeling so much better so I’m able to come out of my bed and walk myself infront of the mirror, looking at my own pale face. “Hello sick guy, how are you?”

“feeling alright I think, the past feel day was like a total hell to me, feeling so much like a zombie cause I was totally lifeless during that period of time” guy in mirror said.

so yeecheng replied “since you felt so lifeless, then during that period of lifeless moment what do you want most?”

“I pray to recover as fast as possible and do what a human should do. While I was bathing, thinking if I will faint in the toilet, I swear to myself that once I recover I will treasure my life to the best.” Guy in mirror said.

So yeecheng replied again “so now I have recover, did you learn your lesson? Do you still want to stop walking toward your life, stay at the same old ground you are standing?”

“I believe I can carry on my life, toward my goal, my dream, my long dream vision.” Guy in mirror said.

After this conversation, I really know what I should do with my life and I learn some thing about life again. Big thanks to the guy in mirror, big thanks to the guy talking to the guy in mirror. What a great conversation it is seeing then talking to one another. Yes!! I have the right to keep every single bit of my memories I had with her, till now I still love her as much but in the form of friend, frankly speaking I still waiting for her to say “I willing to be your friend” I long to hear that from her and keep on waiting. Love, what a great word that lead my life so differently from now and I believe everyone is the same like me too. Love, what a great word that give everyone a differently kind of ending in a relationship which even included death, It does not have a definite meaning in it but it depend on how that look at it. Sometime I even think that why don’t I find another love now, just play around and finish it. OH MAN !!! it the devil that said this to me in my heart and it tempted me so much, I always know it wrong to think this way so please stop this kind of thinking yeecheng, please stop it. This is not love and never fit to call it love.

I have been talking to a few friends this few days, as they have encountered their relationship problem. I gave then my own view and hope more or less my advised can let them overcome their problem, eventually lead them out of their darkness. After every chatting with my friend, I would said to myself that all this conversation today with my friend shall reflect on my own, it a lesson for myself too. Love or no Love? All depend on how we handle it and how we look at it.

Tips for the day= Looking at our own imagine inside the mirror, sometimes we shall talk to our reflection. We normally forget “myself” and neglect our own dear self, leaving my soul empty. Never neglect our own soul and body, give ourself what we really need to nourish with, so to refresh our dearly soul and body in order to walk a further destination.