May be I have ask too much
I just hope to feel love but some of you may think that I’m desperate and that not the truth at all.
Love simply keep me going on in life, love from someone special let me know that I can lay on her when I tire but I have no one to lay on. And I always filled my heart with love through comforting or helping someone because a smile on their face just printed so deeply in my heart that just easily make a day for me.
But, at time I also need someone to talk to me, someone who know my heart. I’m not complaining that I regret helping others and I never regret even once, no matter how strong I am, there will still be time when I break down or need a listening ear, someone who I can lean on so dearly. And all my words and sorrow, I have no one to talk to but to god in heaven, and god never fail to comfort me with her ultimate love, god never fail to advise me, never fail to listen to me. Thanks god.
This is also why people have their idol in life such as fei lun hai, rain, and Taiwan or korea idol. YES! They are talented, they are handsome, pretty, cute or sexy but I believe in minority, people seek idol so they can “love” and hope that their idol can “love” them too. They are eager to love someone and be love, as they are unable to get into a relationship where they can love someone so freely. When this happen, you guys can see that those minority can spend time and money and energy to support their idol, or even follow them for days and days.
Of course, I’m not the minority or the crazy one. I seeking for someone special that can move my heart, it a feeling that touch my soul. But none, beside………..( not my ex ) But I know it totally impossible. She really moves my heart and I don’t know why and how, it times to get her out of my mind and heart.
Helping people on earth is still my priority; their smile is what I need. I have no idol in life; god is the one that will move on with me. It may be the only strength I have so far. I pray for someone who I can really intimate my soul with. May be i have really asked for too much
Tips for the day= You may not reach that far, but a goal and dream from you may really change your destiny. Dare to hope, dare to dream, so what if you can’t reach in the end but at least you know you go for it real hard before. Walk on your dream. But what must contain in you is you never get so deeply disappointed if you simply can’t reach.
