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Monday, May 19, 2008

my death note ; 2:23 PM

我的死亡日记

这几天我的心情不是很好，看了新闻知到中国，四川，和缅甸都遇到了大灾难，死亡人数都是以万以上来计算。

从电视新闻所看到的画面都让我心酸，痛苦！！！

那一幕又一幕把遇灾者从 “豆腐渣”救出的伤者及死者，真的让人心惊又胆跳。就有这一幕看了后，我的泪水掉了下来。。。

“我从学校 3 楼跑了下来，但在我还没逃出时，学校就榻了。地震停后，我就从洞钻了出来，过后才发现我的手断了。因为我被埋的太久，所以双手以被细菌感染，要被砌除。我求医生保留我一只手，我还想写字学习。医生说可以留手，但这样就不能留命。”

有一名记者报道 “救灾人员发现在底程，有一位母亲是背向上，双膝跪地，两手撑地的死去。当救灾人员把这母亲抬走时，竟然发现母亲肚下有个两个月大的小男婴，还睡得正香呢！男婴身旁有一台手机，上面的信息写着孩子啊，你一定要健健康康，快快乐乐的长大。虽然妈妈不在了，但妈妈要你知道我爱你，多么的感人，心酸。”

我开始责备自己，生自己的气！我为什么坐以待毙，什么都帮不上而看这众生，一个一个的离去。我心情很烦！孩子还那么小，父母的离去，美满的家庭就在一瞬间不告而别。看这众生的离别，就有如我自己也跟这死去。。。。。我要改变这世界，改变人心。老母，别让孩子们走啊，我希望有多一点的时间。

My death note.

Upon watching the news on china and Myanmar, that have been experiencing this natural disaster, millions and millions of people that die within a few second.

My heart cry, my heart break! And all that I could do is to cry.

“I ran down from the third floor of my school and even before I could run out of the school, it had already collapse. By the time it stop shaking, I try to come out from the hole that I can see which is right in front of me. I successfully claw out of it and then realize that both my arm had already broken. Due to infection, the doctor have to cut off both my hand, I beg to have one of my hand remain because I need my hand to learn. The doctor says it possible but I will have to exchange it with my life. “

Another reporter reported saying “A group of army found a lady die by having the back facing upward, knee kneeling on the floor and both her hand supporting the ground. The medic confirm that she is dead and carry her away, surprisingly they found a 2 month old baby below the lady stomach and sleeping so sweetly without a single injury. One of the medics found a hand phone beside the baby, having a message being type saying. My dear boy, I hope you will grow up healthy and happy, although mummy are not able to be with you anymore but mummy want you to know that I love you. “

I hate myself, I blame myself for not doing anything to help this disaster but watching the news and crying down there. Is that all I can do? Seeing people on earth leaving this world day by day, all the kids, the parent and a happy family that is all destroy within a few second without saying good bye to anyone. I’m frustrated. Looking at those people dying away, it as if I’m dying with them too. I need to do something to change the world, to change the people around. Dear heavenly God, give me more time, give our man more time, here I pray.