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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Hello 2009 ; 12:02 AM

Hello 2009

I’m so sorry my dear blog, haven been updating you for quite some time, sorry that I have neglected you. LOL!

Was quite busy weeks ago till recently because there was Primers camp, Camphobic, and then follow by preparation for Christmas and part as such. Of course it tiring but overall, I had fun :D

Oh, by the way, to dote my blog a bit more, this is going to be a very long wordy post if you guys don’t mind but I can ensure (try to) that this is going to be an interesting post.

Three more days and 2009 will be coming to take over and I’m going to do a re-cap on what had happen to me in this 2008.

I realize that I’m dropping in standard and activeness in my religion as well as in youth group, not reading as much like before, not having as much patience and good temper like before. Maybe it the busyness I have in school and what I really care is only my own stuffs.

I didn’t have much time for my inner soul anymore, 24hours isn’t enough anymore. I’m too into the world, a world that only ask for money, that how I really think. I heard that my inner soul have been complaining about it, but I simply put it aside and carry on with what I’m doing. Oh yeah, the problem I’m saying down here is about how BUSY I am, nothing bad. Doing of sharity (activity in primers that give out foods and daily items that the poor needs) let me realize even more how important money means to us, mean to me and how important having a family or at least a life time partner with you is. I saw senior citizen that is single, the kind of loneliness life they are leading. The environment they are living in, a proper kitchen can turn into a garbage / store room for them and the weird smell that the house have. The weak and tiring face that has on them, my heart and mind is asking a question, what actually turn them like this?

Seriously giving this question a thought of it, money is the main problem. Yeah! It is the main problem. Few days back, I went to have some drink at the star buck with some of the NPRC then we talk about, when we want to get marry and among all, I’m the one saying “Hmmm, I got feeling I will only get marry at the age of 40?”

Shaun, ZhiXian, Anthony and Geena was like “WHAT?!”

Yeah, it not what I want if I’m studying Chinese Medicine but that how it going to be because my family have no money to pay it for me and I got to depend on my own, simple as that.

Come to think of it, having a family on my own, a lovely wife and children is going to be wonderful things on earth but if I only start that at 40? DREAM ON!

I think I really got to have a change on my plan for life and this remind me of Andy’s msn pm “We work so hard just to lie in coffin one day”

Since I’m going to die, I might as well enjoy what the earth have for me? Yes, that how the thought is washing my mind with, though I always learn that only eternal life is real. Learning of moral value, I think somehow I’m practicing but letting go of what the earth and world have for me, earning big money and living a luxury life for my family and I, I think for that maybe I can’t let it go.

I think my learning journey in medical field and nursing field will be ending in coming 2years time because I don’t want to be nurse, I still prefer to wear a tie to work after all. I don’t want to spend more than of my life studying Chinese medicine and settle down only at my old age.

I’m a person who has a bombastic ego on dreams and money and status and everything good, if it not because the 18 years of teaching on moral value, I think my life is gone.

Recently, I read on a MSN news on “how to get real rich”, it about an article reporting on a businessman doing publishing. The golden tips that he get real rich is this “Scarifies friends, family, relatives, love one, including the trust that everyone have for him” and he added on that “if you don’t have the gut to do to this, then don’t think of getting rich.”

This let me realize that what he say are quite true, if that really the case then for what selling all those stupid books teaching “how to get rich in 60minute, the 10 principle of getting rich” all this kind of shit.

Maybe one day, I can come with a book teaching “how to get rich without betraying your loves one.” only if I did it. Speaking about career, I told my girlfriend that I really love giving care and loves to people around me, that why I want to get into medical field but that not my strength and I’m only going to did it at old age so I may really give it up, sorry that I may disappoint Jia Jia sister. I’m may be concentrating on my strength, in leading, speaking and managing.

Because I’m not born in a golden spoon family, I am dying to have one. So I must, with my hard work, with my brain and I’m going to bet on with my luck and my principle is, to do it with the hold of moral value.

In 2008, that all in driving me crazy about money though I’m only 18 but I’m old enough to see how desperately and stressful the world is and need about money, as everyone can see and hear that financial crisis is there to bark on us.

In 2009, my plan is to learn how am I going to prepare myself for what the world need and to get my education done properly in poly and to be involve actively for my youth group, having time for my inner soul and last but not least, my girlfriend that I won’t be neglecting. I love her :D

HEEELLLLOOOO 2009 !!!!