Notification........... ; 1:26 PM
Notification...........
I just couldn't understand if i am the one changing from good to bad or she is the one changing to becoming more sensitive.
Am i not a good child? i believe i'm giving less trouble for her but that not what she think of. Or i'm wrong?
I almost dealing all thing on my own but that not what she think of. She feel that i'm drifting away from her / them.
I'm a guy after all, do i need to behave like a girl and tell them for whatever thing i do, i go? Not saying that there is no need for communication, i did but she's over-reacting.
BUT, after knowing something else...My heart just sank.
I'm dead worry for her. So what's the next step?
Am already 18, it time for a bright and beautiful teenager life and i don't want to waste it. A most playful and memorable stage of life ever. Of course not saying that i want to become a stray teen, but in a healthy life style i mean. That more like me.
So i wonder what kind of life do my parent lead when they were 18, i only know that my parent are a couple together during their's 18. Din't they had their most memorable teen's life?
Even if they didn't have, i want to have and i swear i wouldn't miss it. There is only ONCE.
Maybe i'm their first child, eldest child. So they are not use to the kind of behaviour i'm having it now like, go out whenever i one and out of a sudden i will tell them that i'm having camp. Meeting for activities like every weeks and most of the time i'm spending outside and not at home.
When i'm doing a self reflection, i think i can understand their feeling. One day i may become a parent of a few kids, lols! i gotta be a few, i hope. i will have the same trouble as well, when my kids are in their teens stage. A time when their wings are growing stronger and start flying on their own.
One thing, i really hope my parent to know is that, i'm not going stray but just enjoying my teens life as much as possible because i could only live once. I starting to feel the stress of adult life and i'm actually delaying it by acting like a childish kid and handling all my stuffs at the same time.
Anyway, that not call avoiding but appreaciating every stages of my life and no way they can stop me from "learning how to fly when my wings actually start maturing" because i need to see and learn from the world. I hope one day, they could understand the way i think and the way i live my life and i myself will also understand their worry for me and try explaining to them as well. I love them after all.
